Sunday, August 17, 2014

Finding Balance


The other day, I drove by this empty plot of land that was fenced up. The lot used to be a recycling plant which later burned and closed down. There was a dirt road leading further into the property. I couldn't help but wonder what that path led to.

If I was 20 years younger, I'd probably think that, gather some friends, climb the fence and find out. As an adult, I know better... I could be arrested for trespassing, and who stops their car in the middle of a busy road to find out "what lies beneath the hidden path" anyway? and then I wondered... when did I get old? When did my sense of adventure become so stifled. Sure, I have adventures on vacation. We explore new lands, but always staying on the beaten path.. or at least semi beaten. 

When I was a teenager, I lived in a busy city. We used to go up to the rooftop garden that was closed to public because of "safety hazards", climb the fence, and spend the night watching the city go by high in the sky, talking about the things we wanted to be. It was beautiful, and I always remember those times fondly. Of course I also easily forget the times where we ran from the security when we got caught trespassing. The folly of youth.

As an adult, I have a responsibility to follow the law, be a responsible person etc etc. But where do I find that balance between enjoying life and being so stifled that life becomes a bore? How do I act on my whims and fancies without destroying my life or my credit score. How do we find balance?

There are so many things I want to do and see in life but there is so little time. I can only do these things on vacation, because I need to work, to enjoy these things that I want to see and do. How do I live in the moment instead of planning for the next exciting trip or activity? How can I find some excitement in my every day life. 

And the more I think about it, the more I realize that the excitement of my life is right in front of me. I come home every day to a man who loves me more than I think I deserve. I have everything I need. Every day I wake up is exciting because I am alive. What more can I ask for? Finding balance is also about appreciating what I have right now and not waiting for the next new thing. It's still a challenge, some days more so than others. But nobody said balancing life was easy.